love..

"You are going to move through this.
More importantly, I love you. YOU ARE GOING TO MOVE THROUGH THIS.
Don't be defeated. Submit yourself to the process. You are growing. You are changing. You are doing LIFE.
I am not trying to make you feel better. This fucking hurts, and there are no two ways around it.
But I am trying to encourage you to not retreat. I can't remove the pain, but I am going to hold your hand while it hurts.
Continue to reach out. You need people right now.
I'm here for anything you need.
You are LOVED in ways you cannot imagine. In ways that don't depend on you. In ways that don't depend on your performance. In ways that cannot be lost. Remember Remember Remember.
Love you my friend."

those words are from a blog on www.twloha.com .

i cant believe them. but i want to. i want to so badly that it physically hurts.

it says i need people. I'd feel much better to hide from them. why would i need the ones who burn me?

TWLOHA is my inspiration for life. most of the time. i want to believe their message...but i cant today.

maybe tomorrow I'll breathe again. maybe tomorrow I'll smile. but not today. today is numb. nothing...

i want a masochistic lion.