:/

"if you live in the praises of man, you will die in their criticism"
" it takes God to love God. It takes loving God to really love anyone. "
-Laura Cooke (her blog here)

i write about that all the time, and i never really listen to it.
ugh, i do that all the time. all. the. time.

the past few days i have been SO upset at my daddy.
he hurt me, and i cant get over it.
because of him, i am so terrified to love. or let myself be loved.

my entire life, i have pushed the good people away.
i want them so bad. i need them.
but i push them away out of fear. 100% fear.

and i'm always trying to please people.
i dont care about what they think, but at same time i do.

i am so confused.
i'm scared, that they will push me away for being human.
i can't ake people anymore.
i'm sick of them.
but i love them.

:(


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